made some people mad.. apologised.. was asked out.. declined.... ...

heyhey the news for today : i FELL OFF MY motorBIKE during the plank section.. n landed on my right butt!! lol!! lucky my butt got tons of fats to cushion sia!! =P


wantt to pass my motorbike by end of this year!! ...6 more months...!! wohoo!! way to go syuhada! ...

monday - shit!! i cant remember what i did!!

tues - went out with gdgd frewn to go for her MEDICAL check-up at nus!! costs $30!! omg la!! then i met ST there!! omg! damn co-incidental..was jux calling her the day before!! talked talked.. then me n my jc gd gd frewn go watch a movie after that!! Ghosts of girlfrend past..quite nice la!! chick flick!!

weds - went to school..Zz... life is booring!~... my senior(with the ex) 's mother bdae!~ [gd news-next week confirmed no sch!! h1n1 in NYP!! wohoootz!] ... a bit depressed day.. cried a bit.. life is bad.. tinking of lotsa things.. shall blog abt it in the next post..hopefully

thurs - the most memorable day of the week!! morning- my elder bro 'blanja' us a movie..transformers!! damn nice actions la!! wohoootz!! . then in the evening on the way to book my motor prac...guess what...i got a call.. ' my 3+1 scholarship is successfull!!!!' omgomg la!! overseas uni for 1 year! i will get my degree!! .... n i met my pri sch best friend on my way to booking for prac lesson!!~ wohoootz!! the scholarship requires me to study but it reolves my problem that i was crying abt yesterday!~..wohooo!!....

-i hope my senior reads this.. coz i was calling him n he didnt pick u his hp!.. i wanted to share with him this gd news..-

fri a.k.a. today- i passed my prac lesson 2!! now im going to prac lesson 3!! 2 more lesson to go bef i am taking my RTT!~



p.s. michael jackson passed away today!~..









thank god for answering my prayers!~

yesterday..met up with the guy to pass him his hp back!!! finally (so he doesnt need a reason to go out with me any more!! =)) .....

then went to arabic class..i tell u.. having my hp is a nuisance!! i jux regret giving him my hp no. ARGH!!

the nite calls.. smses.. Argh! musshy until i wanna vomit can?..

then next part = my senior..hmm.. we were smsing then suddenly came abt the topic abt me rejecting him.. but .but... his life is still in the midst of his previous relationship..there is always his ex.. when i needed him to tok to.. he's with his Ex!! argh!!.. thus my reason for rejecting him..=his ex.. i dont wanna b the extra.. N i told him that coz its the truth!......bleh.. n he is still tinking abt having a scandal! lol!! ...



n my life continues... = singlehood is not that bad after all!! =)

omg!! hope go cut short hair with bangs.. n she looks chic n cute in it.. in totaly shocked..1- hope neva cuts short hair...2 - hope neva cuts bangs!! im jux gona stay speechless....

hihi!! back frm my interview... =)


hm...basically its jux basic qns.. why do u wanna take PT n not medicine.. ouh well ...a lot of qns ...but simple ones..the travelling tym is like frm jj come home la!! slept soundly in the mrt!! hahaha


he called.. n guess what?..the usual qns.. n the part of ..can i follow u to ____... im like..what? >< i dunno lerh.. so much for being normal friends... its scary okiez... this is scary.. blehx....


i wanna stay single fr the mean time.. aint that the ideal situation?.. =) yeah!! ..

im pissed..then im happy..then im sad.. then im dissappointted.. then im neutral again...

thats my emotional ride yesterday

whoa.. in life.. u jux cant expect things to go right...it jux keeps turning left..

@ the start of the day.. i made my younger bro n my young cousin cry coz they neva study n got a lecture frm me..

then my mom scolded me.. but it wasnt my fault that they r damn lazy.. she wasnt that lenient to me when i was young.. i cant remember being pampered that much... =X she calls me their step mother.. then when i teached them at library..she seems happy with it.. coz im making effort to improve my younger brther's horrible science..lol!! its the student that needs to make effort .. not the teacher!! LOL

that made me pissed till i teared a bit

then that guy frm the post below asked me to collect his hp frm j.e. as a favour for him n passed it to him later in the day.. so i said.. okiez.. lol! (a decision which i regret) in the end i didnt pass it to him n have to meet up another day =X ...


{while waiting for the hp, i met my JC shooting senior.. hu i missed so much .. n my cousin!! LOL}

n shittily.. i wasted 2 freaking hours waiting for him..nn guess what?!?! when i called him, he said he was bz at that moment!! WTH!! .. n made me wait 2 hours at lot 1 ... v pissed off...

{luckily my gd gd frewn was there to accompany me =) *grins*}

then @ lot 1 i met 2 other seniors frm my sec sch!! n my pri sch classmate!! omgomgomg!! crazy day...then went slack ard lot 1 till 8pm with my 2 seniors n one of the senior's ex... ><>< they keep insisting that i sell that hp n split the profit..LOL!! joke ard for 2 hours till i also no energy... then i go home.. n felt disspointted by that guys action n talked to him abt it.. even he agreed that every1 will be pissed off if they were in my situations..ouh well.. he apologised like..5 times?.. 2 in an sms.. 3 times while talking.. but i was pissed off..so i jux gave cold replies.. anw, finally i cleared up after the typical gd morn msg.. tat i jux wanna b treated as a NORMAL friend.. nothing more.. =) {almost the same as what i tild my senior the last tym =X}
ouh well ..this morn he agreed.. lets quote "im not rushing things. dont worry im not ready myself for anything" .... wohooo!! now tym for my interview..
wish me lucks..!!

will update on how it goes on later
here im to say : thx lots to my gd gd frewn n my senior who was able to lighten my mood yesterday!! Love u 2 lots =)

this update is late by almost exactly one day..


monday nite when my cousin smsed me.. i knew when she wanted to meet up the very next day that she had something up her sleeve for me....

n guess what.. my instinct was totally right





my cousin planned - to shock me with a double date... O.O ....

n guess what? it happen to b my religous pri sch classmate..lol!! hu i never saw for 6-7 years?... i guess there were stupid things*that i wont share abt* that i did when i was young n naive.. ouh well... thus people remember me for those thingys!!.. omg..can u believe it? my 'retarded-ness started since pri sch..'

anw, when i 1st saw the person ...was... blank.. hus he?... then when my cousin told me who he was.. i was like...hmm... shit.. i cant remember..*dig my long-term-memory-bank* ... hmm.. when it became awkward..n guess what?.. i learned to play pool!! =) *grins*... within 1 year 1 learned 2 new thingys.. one-my 1st shot at pool n ice-skating!! wohoo!! omg! anw, then we went to esplanade @ nite... where something happened to my cusin but she's ok after that.. my 2nd shock for the day... =) anw, now i respect her bf's tinking.. not bad for a guy.. quite mature..




anw, had a 2 hour plus convo with my jc study buddy (who got promoted to my gd gd frewn..LOL...) then i got another 2 hour convo with him.. ><"
*grins*



wait wait!! thats not all.. i asked one of my senior.. whether he likes me..*i know im like blunt.. but ... but.. thats me..* .. ouh well. i got something that sounds like a yes.. =X ..hmm....

haha...call me n tok if u want elaboration on any of the above..lol!!



anw, there is something wrong with my sony erricson hp.. chaging back to my old hp to send this hp to the repair... >< sigh!!! =(

i dunno whats with me n bad decisions.. do i jux attract it like bees is attracted to flower?...

when my cousin asked me to emcee an event for today.. stupidly i agreed..

n guess what?.. i never felt this much like a misfit before like i did today!!

i wore not 'glam' enough clothings..for an EMCEE! gee..i didnt know that muslim women is supposed to donn on make up that is thick as a cake n pluck their eyebrows..n wear go glittery stuff that i wanna go blind by standing in front.. (sarcastic) ...... shit man.. u r supposed to NOT attract attention of males etc.. or was i taught wrongly?...orh man....the last tym i went to this event was when i was like 9 years old...

then they keep asking for my script..adding in stuff n say that is wrong n this is wrong (DURING THE EVENT!!!).. i freaking feel like throwing the script at them n say..! go do it urself if ur so fussy.. guess what? u asked me to do it.. so now im doing it.. n everythings wrong..

i was totally ignored n all.. n guess what?..malay doesnt happen to b a language i can converse well in..so i guess i jux suck thumb , swallowed every tear.. n did it to the best that i can while being quite a disgrace...



now i totally remembered why i didnt want to do such stuff last tym.. i remembered feeling the same way.. orh man!! ..







anw, life moves on... next : tml : studying day...

can u imagine how tired i was frm running frm one end to the other end of singapore yesterday?
i slept frm 7pm-10.30pm ... n 12midnite-7am! siao!!!....


today.. 8am- all set to go out... 9am- went out with my v irritating cousin to jurong bird park.. had to wait for my elder brother for 40 mins...STANDING up n near the RAIN with HEAVY bags!! sometimes i really forget my elder brother never-punctual behaviour.. ouh well.. when i just felt like crying frm my cousins mumblings..noisy annoying complaints...my brotherS appeared!! whoaaa!! died!! n i had to lug ard 6 bottles of water ard the jurong bird park n take pics.. Zzzz...

anw, the most annoying part of the day other then my cousin dropping the water on her pants in the mrt n me having to bring her home to bathe her...is that this **** senior of mine.. ouh well...he n his ex fight AGAIN becoz of me.. shit man! like its my fault.. 1st : u both have broken up! ..2nd : i call him to ask for advice n not to go dating with him or anything..3rd : im pissed off becoz what he says says a diff thing n does another.. hhaix.. i give up.. i wont ever tok to him abt any of my issues.. nor help him settle his never-ending prob with his ex ( who keep insisting that im with him.. when i have nothing to do with him other then ask some stuff that i need opinions in! ) ......................................................dude if ur reading this.... settle ur business.. will not disturb nor communicate with u to make things worst.. i have my studies to tink abt too!~..... =)




i like this chinese song what i bluetooth frm my frewns hp.. but i cant read the chinese char of the tittle.. so i cant ask sum1/ find translation for it.... >< sigh....



hehe! hope..!!

im updating 3 times in a period of 1 week!! a record for me!! wohooo!! do u read my almost-daily updates?hahaha


anw, my moms is lots beta!! thx to any1 hu prayed for her!! .. even though still a bit far frm full recovery... but an improvement is gd enuf!~




shoe...... (i wanna get soft ballet shoes.. hu knows where to get a pair?)

today mux b the memorable day of my life because :
this is according to the event happenings today

1- morning 8am-10am : i screwed up my motor lessons 2.. which consists of going up the slope..stopping in the middle of it.. n continueing..(teacher said.. i sop a bit too long ah) .. the the 8-figure course.. (i swear..u mux b going damn fast to complete it in 11 secs!!) i completed it in 11.22!! n i tink its fast..haha!! so much for speed!! n the crank course!! this zig-zag thingy... i dunno.. which i also exceed the time limit bcoz i didnt throttle enuf before i change to gear 2!! lol.. no speed no speed!!! haix.. mux SPEED up!!!!!

i got 4 missed calls frm an unknown number
n guess what? NGH called me down for the 3+1 interview/sponcership interview
its at 3pm.. pondering ..shld i go?asked for a later time..

2- morning 10.30am : i was at admiralty doing admin stuff n shop a bit for my mom.. n i saw this old lady..who is suddenly seated with people crowding ard her bcoz she was dissy.. i helped a bit n since sum1 calle dthe ambulance n doctor.. i jux walked off..(ignorant singaporean)

(this part required backgrd info tt my mom is sick the whole day yesterday..vomitingn dssy..when she stand to go to toilet n she even felt like vomiting/fainting..)
3- morning 11am: reached home.. see my moms condition.. obviously..TAXI to the polyclinic (coz i no $$ to bring to hospital..which requires a $50 immeidate cash if u go A&E... which i dont have).. then emergency.. i tink i look so panicky they even forgot to take mine n my mom's temp!! hahaha... lol! anw, then it took super long!! until 2pm then we got to see the doc..n 2.30 she got her injection fr giddyness..etc etc.... it was then that NHG called me n say..ok can go interview at 3.30pm intead n confirmed the venue!! n i didnt prepare..lol!!...so..2.30.. taxi my mom home n taxi to nuh..lol...

3- at nuh at 3.30pm exactly!! lol.. coz got traffic jam..whoa.. i was a bitty nervous coz i totally didnt prepare.. so i spoke the truths..(which i tink i shld have lied..aiyah..screw it!)..n lie abt one bit..or maybe i didnt because the person assumed so i didnt really lie right?...ouh well.. n the truths doesnt sound that nice n convincing though.. anw.. they say in 1-2 weeks will contact me.. but i tink my chances is gone! bleh.. i screwed up n i admit it.. blehs.. i tink if really get the 3+1 i damn lucky/ the interviewer damn weird.. i screwed uppppppp! but its over.. i going to apply for alexandra one next..lalalla...

n i totally forgot i organised a grp meeting today... how nice.. argh!! my STM really irritates me at times..

4 - my mom got betta n she is recuperating at home now so dont worry...
every1 jux pray that she gets betta okiez =)

n life still goes on....


orh i forgot to add!! : THX to my senior for picking up the call when i MOST needed ur support..=) really needed a coll mind tinking at that moment.. n i really wondering abt the get-a-weekend-job advice..

miracle 1: i COOKED yesterday!! hahaha!!
miracle 2: i PON sch today to send my mom to clinic & go interview
miracle 3: i dont feel sad that i screwed up.. at least i tried my best...
miracle 4: i appreciate my senior beta
impt factor 5: shoe is going jurong bird park tml..
impt factor 6: shoe have got examz which she havent started studying for
impt factor 7: shoe is promising to study more in this blog of hers..






anw, thats it for the moment..
hope, n rachie....

if ur reading this.. =) enjoy ur momentary stay that is not in singapore.. i keep forgetting how stressfull it is..

i tink i dissappeared for quite some time already ah... like 1 month of no-updates... so here i am

basically... lots of things have happened in this 1 month...

half of which i cant remember

but what i can remember iz that....

im uber tired.. n i shldnt b complaining nor blogging a this tym...

anw, my class had a pink-shirt day when we went to sgh that day.. so u can imagine the stares frm the public all the way frm NYP to SGH me n my friend got separated frm ur classmates @ sgh.. then the staff was like ur class went there.. haha!! lol.. anw, the pics frm my cam is in FB...uber cute la...!! the socially-active/socially-engaged people supporting the breast cancer thing/movement....anw, i dont get it.. why we get so mny stares when the campaign itself ask people to wear pink...hmm.... singaporeans r jux one ignorant bunch of people...sigh


then i had tons of rushing here n there..orh yeah!! n the OTnPT presentation is done!! wohoots!! did a gd job!! hmm... i only recorded the video, n did the presentation, a bit of editting n some pics...n some props.................anw, what matters is i didnt spoil any part of it n the grp effort so all our rus n hard tinking paid off!! wohootz!!

next project/presentation up is sociology n chinese!!!n one down .. 2 more to go!! wohoootz!!


anw, i tink i got no social life... sigh....school, home...


i kindda feel outed sometimes when people ard me tok in chinese. i dunno if izit jux me.. but i kindda feel that way since young.. like pri sch?... i cant mix with the malayz coz im not malay enuf... sigh.. sometimes it makes me regret my mom's decision of stopping my chinese lessons in k1..i only learned numbers there.. >< sometimes i jux stopped toking...more of to observe n listen/eavesdrop a bit.. trying to take bits n pieces n learn the words..but i was juc tinking.. the culture n the inter-racial things that they r so proud of/they preach at.. izit true or izit only tolerance n no understanding at all...

which reminds me.. i felt so insulted that day by the lady frm HR for one of the scholarships.. she said that we cannot wear tudong bcoz after we wash up n is in a sterile condition we will touch n adjust our tuding/ a.k.a scarf which will make the glove not sterile already.. WTH! so all muslim women die die mux adjust their tudongs at all time izit? no right? i touch my tudong only like 3-4 times a day.. lol!! so much abt inter-racil understanding...i beilieve that its not an issue n i dont get it why we cant put our tudong underneth our uniforms..n pin it in place so that it wont move...!!


moving on... rachie is off to m'sia for 3 weeks.. n hope off to china for 3 weeks also.. sadd.... n syuhada has only been to m'sia n indonesia in her life.. sigh...

i cant remember what to say already....


ouh yah... HAPPIE B'DAE to my younger bro!! hu is turning 12 today!!

n examz is in 3 weeks time.. im gonna die!! omgomgomg!! week 11 for physio,kine ...week 12 got anat,chinese ICA... week 1-sociology....

FAINTS!!! chao every1.. gonna Zzzz... shall try to update more regularly!!~