got a job.. started.. tired..


got a next door guy, a cute guy n a nerd guy..



got a gurl..hu i cant talk much too.. guess she doesnt mix with my type..(too old/too smart for me)






got a lot of stuff to memo.. more then what i normally do.. haix..









got to do 1hr each..rotating shift jux now..she was damn pro la ..beside her.. i felt like an incompetent fool.. imagine yourself.. the youngest the most inexperienced kid.. being brought to a castle where u r supposed to learn all the turns n corners n master it asap.. now i jux feel like my future is a dim corridor where there r traps hidden in unknown areas together with a person who is familiar with all these traps.. where i nid to reach the other end of the corridor with the slightest trap n my STM sondition is not helping..Zzzz...
















got to move on..
































got to pick myself up n RUN! run syu run!







































Playgrd Wish 4 today: i wanna know all the guys beta =) gurls too but since im going home with 1 of them for the next 4 months.. might as well jux make frewnz..
[im not bf hunting right now..not that desperate yet..haha]

PISSED! totally pissed.!!! freaking pissed.. am i supposed to read ur bloody mind? i dont bloody care..i've had enuf..how am i supposed to bloody know what u have..

examz ended yest.. i felt relieved..





went to sangz house.. then we changed planz.. instead of shopping, we went job-hunting.. uber interesting ddayy...

























today..went job hunting again..tiredd.. completed helping a frewn with his blog..Zzz..

n i tink i disturbed people's silent life with my nonsense.. sum1's phone rang (due to my sms) during a practical.. n during a lecture.. lol.. i hope the person learnt a lesson: dont give me hp numbers.. haha! lol! n if i have ur no, plz put it to silent mode.. =D [now the friend gave me a slot/timing to sms..LOL! u think i would follow?..lol..i sms according to my mood..not timings =)]







































Playgrd Wish today: i wan a AGNES B. WALLET!!!!

anw, thurs i went johor..bought 2 new tops.. =) ..fri exam n library... sat n today - help my aunt with her husband's sister's daughter's wedding.. a FAR relative of mine.. (who i dont even knoe..they seem to recognise me though.. Zzz... i tink itz jux my bad memory..=(

im sad










i lost my dear external hard disk frm last yr..










search fr 1 yr already.. after tuesday, im gonna TOTALLY CLEAR MY RM! n the STUDY RM! n find my long lost partner in crime!!




















where r u my darling?





















Rachie: yeah! save money! my hp bill is like totally out of range la!







i rarely get migraine.. =( i hate it.. feel like pulling all my hair out n take my brain outta my skull when it happens.... =(






Playgrd Wish for today: i want my external hard disk back! =(

2 more!!




whoa!! the endless road is ending soon...!!









i nid to diet ! shit...




















i tink one of my friendship is not worth my time anymore..
im tired in being the one who calls.. i'm not calling people anymore..if u wanna tok..u call.. dn msg me with: im free now, u can call.. u tink i always free ahr? i'm not caling people anymore!

whoa stupid hormones.. they ended their strike jux bef econs paper!




lucky the paper was tricky enuf to distract me frm a terrible stomach..!













then comes the tsunami.. i knoe people reading this will b like.. is this A lvl student crazy? being awake at 4am blogging when she's supposed to b studying for ppr 1 econs? but oh well.. nature happened to me n i had to wash clean change things.. n i cant sleep coz something is drying!! Zzzz.. y did this happen to me? tooo high stress lvl? but i have my 1.5-2hrs leisure per day despite it being an exam period..(which i need..or i realise my hormones willl go on total strike!)...
zZZ... at least no more 2 papers a day.. today's an afternoon paper.. so i tink i can sleep again in 3 hrs..for 1-2 more hours? i wonder......



















itz gonna b over soon...















the uphill journey..that seem endless.. now we jux have to wait n c the results of our 2-yr effortz.. =)

i dont care if i died!




what matters now is the countdown.. 3 more to go.. now is my anime time!! 2 hours.. then study study.. Zzz.. what to study for ppr 1? actually i dunno.. im jux going thru econs tuition notez...!!















i love my darling... =) my books.. where oh where r u guys! i nid sum fiction soon or i'll die!























anw, did i mentioned i screwed my A levels! anw, i did my best thats wat matters to me.. its a fight with myself not against others but against me.. if i cant make it..then i guess i have to find alternative ways n means to get where i wanna b..





























my playgrd wish: i wanna my DARLING!!

5 more papers... 3 more major ones..

tml.. =X











i hope i can survive!
























come on shoe.. u can so it!




































jux woke up frm a 2-hr nap.. now i wana cont memo-ing econs .. tml morn nid to memo chem.. =( i hate exam periods thats full of memo subs.. im pissed..im more tired then pissed with my examz.. i tink of i flunk this yr, i dn wanna repeat the whole thingy again next yr.. its a nightmare!

Playgrd wish: how i wish i could have slp..eternal slp...but i have to endure life =) be positive!

there i was


walking home frm tuition...




tears jux streaming out.. jux kept coming..




im stressed.. im tired.. 1st friends-plz dont intro me to any of ur frewns esp frm THAT BLOODY sch.. i dont wanna know them , i dont wanna study with them.. i dont mix with snobs.. i mix with ppl hu r humble.. nor do i wanna mix with them n stress myself up..














i dont know if i can make it.. knowing the future seeming so bleak...
so i jux downpoured all my way home..
walking on the road.. jux crying my heart out..









im tired! im tired! i dont wanna have any more close frewns.. ST n my bad best frewn is enuf.. the 2 who endlessly bring joy n love into my life.. well..the rest .. u r still jux gd frewns to me..
people who make me cry..im jux tired la.. lets put it as that...
























Playgrd wish: i wanna play play n play..immerse myself in oblivion..

good web for examiners tips..
http://www.examzone.co.uk/home/tips-timetable/examiner-tips/






i shall highlight this pt...


10) Once you have finished the exam, don't worry about it and try to avoid comparing your answers with other students. Now the examiners' hard work begins!



Note to self: i have been obeying this rule! mux continue to do so! kampatei me! haha





nose has been running since morn! marathon i tell u.. i feel so ZZzzz! i shant do chem today..instead, i'll b banging for phy paper 2! kampatei me! haha.. tml chem + ECONS! no more procrastinating shoe...no more! enuf! u nid to study the 2 most hated subs eventhough it will kill u! itz only 2 pathetic subs more.. u r more or less ok for phy.. so gogogo!!!

there is 1 thing.. 2 subs to do.. 3 words i shant say 4 days..i hate u...whoa!! applies to chem n econs!! cool!

VAMPIRE KNIGHT GUILTY~!!!!



oh man! i cant wait for next wk = all the more i look forward to the end of examz!












YEAH!! hmmm... mathz today was quite tough.. but ok la..last min i figured out a lot of things =.=!!
































Playgrd wish: i wanna get that 1, 2, 3, 4 i love u song... hmm..i go find n show u all.. i fell in love with the song.. super nice la!

i died a horrible death today...









dont tell me abt it.. dont talk to me abt it!....






























oh Allah plz help me.. =)
























be positive syuhada! u can do it! i shall tie plaids tml!!! i nid to b positive for MATHZ paper 2!!!







































aft mathz itz 6 more papers to go! i have to study hard for chem on fri, (phy + econs) sat n sun! yeah! add oil syuhada! kampatei! RUNRUNRUN!























=( itz still not coming out.. my mom says blood danation wont help, its diff blood...really? anw, im really interested in Allied healthcare.. it seems nice! i get to learn abt..human anotomy!!! yeah! itz cool! i LOOOVE IT!























































plzygrd wish for today: come out come out where ever u r.. plz dont go on strike!!

ok..8 more paper 2/3 of my A levels left.. n im starting to get sick



oh man.. my hormones jux went on strike..



i didnt know i feel so stressed until all the symtomes have appeared....







i didnt realise it until my stomach area feel so bloated..









n when i ate the medcine to shit, all my feaces r out n yet my stomach still feel pain...










so i guess there is only 1 thingy left that is supposed to come out 1 wk ago n it didnt...














ARGHH!!! y now??... neva had this prob bef!!!
































y me?





























Playgrd wish: come OUT!!! ( maybe i shld find a blood donation drive. =.= will it work? )

i wanna get a pink shirt after As

this morn..was a phy paper 3.. followed by a 3-hr-terrible mathz paper, 4 hours later...

the thing that really made my day was that he smiled in the morn!!




Smile!!





thats the only thing that lights up my day.. i love people smiling at me... =)







eventhough there is no reason to, so i kinda did this.. i smiled to the stall auntie in the market where i bought tau-fu frm.. guess what..she immediately smiled back.. she look so exhausted n when i said thank u.. it became one big wide grin! oh man.. i totally love smiles...












i guess ST does that every morn too!! =) ehhe.. which is y i like talking to her.. she's jux full of gossip n life.. not like any other workaholic-zombies i c ard.. thats y i like talking to her.. it makes me feel brighter.. =) i tink she shld b a psychologist.. =)
























Playgrd wish 4 2dae: i want people to SMILE at me! I want to SMILE @ ppl n brighten up their gloomy life..!! =)