yesterday yesterday.. i got an sms that shocked me..anw, by the end of sms-ing the person i got so frust i told the person im gonna block him frm my inbox le..then another frewns frewn called E also hate the guy.. so he said we shld team up n have a JAP .. J's Assasination Plan..Lol....
anw, yesterday i felt as though sum1 stabbed me with a blunt knifethe person who i call my senior .. ouh well.. i met his classmate at work..guess what i found out.. he has been sick.. he doesnt nid an internship coz he's jux damn smart(lol.. proud of him)n when his firned ask him hu am i... im jux a friend.. (not a sec sch frewn.. not anything else.. nothing else.....)so i was tinking.. do i mean anything to him?.. am i jux a fellow friend?...even his friend was asking.. am i close to him.. i questioned myself that yesterday too...
am i bugging him when i call him?...
i dunno..
i feel confused..
hu r u to me?.. hu am i to u?...

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i dont know...
do u know?...


~i wonder if he eva read this blog anymore..~

today...woke up at 9am.. then ZzzZzz again.. hahah!! woke up again at 12 NOON!!

met ST at 1.30pm.. so there we go.. so fired up to go ice-skating.. (i was fired up coz its my 1st tym ice skating!!!)
we bought a cheese cake(me) n a mushroom bun (ST) on our way there..
then we were searching for bus no 11.. it was supposed to b at the bus terminal.. so we walk n walk.. n saw 11..so we RAN to the bus stop!! hahaha!!

lol..then we dropped off at the national stadium there.. n walk n walk n walk some more.. under the HOT HOT sun!! whoaa!! .....Zzz.ZZ... then went to buy V dae present for my bro's frewn.. coz i was giving out chocs..then she's on a diet..so i got her a red-PINK heart piLLOW!! whoa.. pretty pretty!! i like..!! n my gd frewn's V dae present = a file, a book, a badge with an angel n a 'hope' there.. =)=) ... lol [later i found out..she got the exact same file!!! lol.. now it remains in my bag..ZzzZz..] .. then we went ICE SKATING!! *jumpjump..clapsclaps*

the last tym i saw people skating was when i was a lil gurl.. stuck on the glass frame..WhoA'ing at people skating.. now i tried.. at 1st i wasnt used to it.. then the 1st hour, tried to hold the railings.. whoa!!.. i fell once.. muahaha!!.. but it was an expected fall.. then the 2nd hour, i was trying on 'LANE 2' which to me is w/o the railings.. but quite near the side area.. whoa,, this time i lost balance once n fell!! muahaha.. super unexpected.. its like skate skate.. then PIAK!!! i was on my buTT..!! hahaha.. ouh well i tink for the 1st tym i skate its quite ok la.. but quite fun!!.. wohoo!!...
then then we saw tons of lil kids [i really mean lil..like 3-9years old kids] literally flying ard la!!..wth.. then got this twins/sisters...playing catching lerh!!...whoa!! pro la!!...then got this gurl in grey..fell while learning a move.. then she was so down after that,, she stood outside the ring.. with people consoling her.. ouh well.. if she is gonna go professional, she's gotta learn it the hard way... =.= anw, after that she was walking ard with a limp.. poor kidd!..



then on the way back rite.. we took 16 to dhoby ghaut there... i went centre point to my bro's frewn's working place to giv her Vdae presie~! Glad that she love it a LOT!!~ ... =) got some chocs frm there..! [keeping them for tml.. sure mood swingg one.. hahah...]



then went to fetch my gd frewn n we went home tgt..... =)



it was a nice day coz i gotta -Learn something new.. -Meet my 2 gd frewns.. -Talk to my bro's frewn..


it wasnt a nice day coz -He neva reply my sms.. -I neva called back one of my seniors hu called me at 9.52am!.. -A lot of $$ is gone coz i spend a BOMB today



overall score for today : 75/100



hehehe





playgrd wish for today : i wanna a guy hu can treat me to SINS choc once in every 2 months! haha...

today!.. i woke up LATE!!! n caused ST to wait for almost an hour!!! =X


went to meiji choc factory.. it was CLOSED till july.. >< idiot...



then went to s'pore national museum..damn nice.. met my enemy's friend there hu was like super sarcasTIC! dammit.. idiot guy... whats with ur 'DUH?!?!' go n die.. soon i will write a letter to ur sch to mention regarding all the bad attitude of the alumi's frm that sch la...
managed to laugh it off but inside i was like damn angry.. poof!!...


anw, managed to control my mood swing for the day! bought a pink-stress-thingy to hang on my bag to de-stress with...




but overrall it was a FUN day! wohooooo!!.. like going out with ST!






i Read this email which looks/sounds v true...:


title : TWO WOLVES WITHIN

One evening an old Cherokee told his grandson about a battle that goes on inside all people.

He said, 'My son, the battle is between two 'wolves' inside us all. One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.

The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith.'

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather: 'Which wolf wins?'

The old Cherokee simply replied, 'The one you feed.'

my life since then have been one that swings frm one end to another


i jux feel like im floating with the current...




Thx for those people hu r quiet n keep quiet.. sometimes im thankful that people dont tok to me coz silence is much beta.. its peaceful... its mind clearing...


today i went home in the taxi with much in my brain...
so much woories , so much thoughts , so much to tink abt.. so much to cry abt.. so here i am.. crying in front of the comp.. its pathetic rite?.. yeah i know.. i jux kept it bottled up inside of me jux now.. at work.. so cheerful...n such.. thank god for the guy hu keeps quiet when walking/bus'ing to work n hu keeps quiet when taxi'ing home frm work..coz thats when i needed my silence.. need to tink, nid to plan, nid to worry.. thx dude.. sometimes i feel aggitated with silence.. but now, i understand what it means by some silence is good/healthy in ur life.. sometimes itz coz i really dunno what to say to him.. he's jux so quiet.. n i dunno what to talk abt.. im like at a total lost world.. its for once that i cant speak freely to a guy.. at start i was quite talkative then i jux lost my ability to talk.. well.. maybe jux keeping quiet is good for me..







he came back to s'pore but he didnt chat to me for more then 30 mins..didnt even call.. im disappointted.. ouh well.. mayb he's jux shag..tired...








going with ST to meiji choc factory tml..^^ when going to c exhibition.. ^^ wohoo!!..but im down..
i hope my mood will improve tml.. anw, tml morn i wanna go for a run!! last tym i had shooting to de-stress.. now i have nothing to destress myself with.. i know i can talk it out.. but these kindda things.. i jux cant say.. its beyond words.. maybe its my moodswing.. but i really jux feel like screaming n running away!.. run run run. n neva come back.. jux so TIRED.. jux so frust!..jux so troubled..jux so blur.. jux so uncertain, jux so confused, jux so unsure..... i dunno how to let it all out.. was tinking abt talking it out.. but i am not sure if any1 would understand all the gibberish i might sprout out.. i feel so entrapped.. i feel so caught i feel so blocked i feel so ................................................................................................................................................................















i wanna run run away....