thx dear for ur support.. =) n ur tots..really make me decide that i shld try this n do my best in it.. no matter wad every1 else tink of it! =)

i went for a medical check-up yest morn!.. now my arm blue black de!!

anw, work was interesting today !~~~ fly~~

i forgot to apply for NYp.. n now when i got aceepted..people's tots n all r holding me back

im confused.. i wanna tok abt it


but every1 doesnt seem to b free.. no1 i want to tok to seem to b there...

to the guy hu i desperately want to hear his tots..he is doing his fyp at this moment..n said this to me..'then may god bless you and guide you for the sake of ahlul bait' thx dear..!
love u as a friend =) thx for all the effort of understanding me..listening to me..thx for ur reply.." ok great i love u as a muslim @ 11.55pm on 24/03 "



n to my bro's frewn hu gave me endless advices n all.. thx dear!! bless u =)





to the guy hu said the things that make me cry in my confused mind..but said sorry AFTER i already broke down....... i have no comments le...telling me ur blog now also have no use... http://hiseverymoment.blogspot.com/
tink its hard to trust people harz?..i knoe.. but at least i try to trust people hu have trusted me..n try to open up to them.. conversations with them doesnt seem like a Q n A section
they try to understand me... maybe i jux dont fit into ur life... haix...



i dont know .. now im at a crossroad.. that doesnt seem to have a clear definition....

confused.. i jux wanted someone to talk to on the phone n give me a clear idea of whats twisted in my mind at teh moment..cant tink clearly...


if thts so difficult.. i dunno wad to say le...
i jux ran out of words..its jux tears..
confusion
n no1 to share it with me....

i like him.. i really do.. i really hope he can trust me more though...

hey.. anw to those hu knoe.. i got my results on the 06.03

for those hu doesnt.. now u KNOW!





ouh well couldnt sleep the nite bef.. so i was on the phone till 5am! conferencing with my gd frewn n her gd frewn.. lol.. then the other party slept on the phone! lol.. okaez..

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anw, i was so scared on that day.. i almost teared.. i tink my civics tutor is a bit disappointted in some of our results..

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. i tried my best


but the results wasnt that gd nor was it bad..


im satisfied though..



my dad keep comparing me to the other's .. those kids hu can achieve 5-6As.. u know what i say?.. i did my best!.. what can i do?.. they clever.. i stupid marhz..!..lol




on sat i was super sad though.. a friend hu i trust actually told my results to some people when i dont want it to b official..



anw, on mon, me, my bad best frewn n my gd frewn went to walk frm habour front till buona vista!! it was supposed to b a 9km walk.. but i tink we did more la!.. then i got drenched!../ it was uber exciting!.. we got lost n keep looking at mapz.. then we still went to bugis street lerh!!..=)=)
this is the most uber funn day ive eva had since jc1 ended!...wohoo!!..life's gd!..





jumps.. fly.. SOAR!!

i jux broke down



i jux cant stand it anymore




money.. house loans..cpf.. hdb... blueh!.. plus i have to work on the day im getting my A level results!...




haix.. im tired...






jux so soooo tired...




i tink i dug a hole for my elder bro to dig himself out of....















haix... if only people wont force me to go out today, then i can tink clearly with my brain!..






























haix.. im jux so so tired... i wanna tok... but i wonder if u will be there to lend me a listening ear..






























now im uncomfortable with more people then i can imagine...











































playgrd wish : i wanna lie down on the beach n sun-tan.. hu wanna accompany me?

got an sms this morn..

a guy frm work smsed me.. so results coming out this fri?

my reply : hmm.. dunno. u heard frm where ?

the reply i got : its confirmed.. the radio..

in my heart : ouh no!.. shit... so this friday the 06.03.09 that i will face the big crossroad that i was ignoring the whole time

it will b the day that will make or break my parents heart..

it will b the day to decide what im gonna do in the future

it will b the day i will choose what path to take

it will b the day i will find which back-up-plan to follow

it will b the day i will have to decide.. decisions..decisions...




playgrd wish for today : i wanna live a life in ignorance.. im panicking...haix.. no use.. nid a calm mind to tink this over in my head.. tink tink .. decide decide...