i dunno whats with me n bad decisions.. do i jux attract it like bees is attracted to flower?...

when my cousin asked me to emcee an event for today.. stupidly i agreed..

n guess what?.. i never felt this much like a misfit before like i did today!!

i wore not 'glam' enough clothings..for an EMCEE! gee..i didnt know that muslim women is supposed to donn on make up that is thick as a cake n pluck their eyebrows..n wear go glittery stuff that i wanna go blind by standing in front.. (sarcastic) ...... shit man.. u r supposed to NOT attract attention of males etc.. or was i taught wrongly?...orh man....the last tym i went to this event was when i was like 9 years old...

then they keep asking for my script..adding in stuff n say that is wrong n this is wrong (DURING THE EVENT!!!).. i freaking feel like throwing the script at them n say..! go do it urself if ur so fussy.. guess what? u asked me to do it.. so now im doing it.. n everythings wrong..

i was totally ignored n all.. n guess what?..malay doesnt happen to b a language i can converse well in..so i guess i jux suck thumb , swallowed every tear.. n did it to the best that i can while being quite a disgrace...



now i totally remembered why i didnt want to do such stuff last tym.. i remembered feeling the same way.. orh man!! ..







anw, life moves on... next : tml : studying day...