my life since then have been one that swings frm one end to another


i jux feel like im floating with the current...




Thx for those people hu r quiet n keep quiet.. sometimes im thankful that people dont tok to me coz silence is much beta.. its peaceful... its mind clearing...


today i went home in the taxi with much in my brain...
so much woories , so much thoughts , so much to tink abt.. so much to cry abt.. so here i am.. crying in front of the comp.. its pathetic rite?.. yeah i know.. i jux kept it bottled up inside of me jux now.. at work.. so cheerful...n such.. thank god for the guy hu keeps quiet when walking/bus'ing to work n hu keeps quiet when taxi'ing home frm work..coz thats when i needed my silence.. need to tink, nid to plan, nid to worry.. thx dude.. sometimes i feel aggitated with silence.. but now, i understand what it means by some silence is good/healthy in ur life.. sometimes itz coz i really dunno what to say to him.. he's jux so quiet.. n i dunno what to talk abt.. im like at a total lost world.. its for once that i cant speak freely to a guy.. at start i was quite talkative then i jux lost my ability to talk.. well.. maybe jux keeping quiet is good for me..







he came back to s'pore but he didnt chat to me for more then 30 mins..didnt even call.. im disappointted.. ouh well.. mayb he's jux shag..tired...








going with ST to meiji choc factory tml..^^ when going to c exhibition.. ^^ wohoo!!..but im down..
i hope my mood will improve tml.. anw, tml morn i wanna go for a run!! last tym i had shooting to de-stress.. now i have nothing to destress myself with.. i know i can talk it out.. but these kindda things.. i jux cant say.. its beyond words.. maybe its my moodswing.. but i really jux feel like screaming n running away!.. run run run. n neva come back.. jux so TIRED.. jux so frust!..jux so troubled..jux so blur.. jux so uncertain, jux so confused, jux so unsure..... i dunno how to let it all out.. was tinking abt talking it out.. but i am not sure if any1 would understand all the gibberish i might sprout out.. i feel so entrapped.. i feel so caught i feel so blocked i feel so ................................................................................................................................................................















i wanna run run away....