i smsed him "hi hi!! ur 2nd wk at camp is starting soon^^ wohoo^^ u survived^^ hhaha.. lol..Anw,when r u returning to s'pore?"

.. reply " 22..Haha..thanks..LOL..how r u doing?"
..my reply was " 11 days to go^^ hehe^^ wohoo^^ im ok la..still shag^^ hehe u need to ration ur hp batt hor^^.....(etcetc)...
..my reply again " hey^^ got my pay le^^ bring u out on ur 24th can??"
..reply"ok..24 maybe booked"
..my reply" =( y?"
..reply"go out"
..i ignore him
..reply"nights"




i dunno y.. but i feel v frustrated... i care bout him? maybe?...maybe not?... i dunno.. i feel confused.. $^$%&%*^ .. i wait for 9+ pm every nite..even charged my hp..LOL.. i feel dumb..stupid..for waiting?..for looking forward..for expecting a reply? i have decided.. i wanna stop le.. i dn wanna sms.. y am i the one to initiate things?.. the reason i toked to him was coz he initiated most of the convo.. lol.. im tired of taking charge of my life when people cant make plzce for me in their own life n schedule..i change my days for people but they throw it aside like nth.. im tired u know.. jux so shag exhausted n emotionally drained.. i try my best to help n care bout people but i guess i shld jux stop caring harz?








tired.. jux feel like running away frm everything! shit! im supposed to complete my task to monday which is today! $^%^&*%#