tok tok tok..

PICTURE!!

wohoooo!.. i tink i will look ugly in the photo lyk everytym i take pics..

tok tok tok..

i keep talking today...

poor study buddy..have to endure with me even though she lk so stressed n tired...

ouh yAH! study buddy ALMOST STEP ON A FROG ON THE WAY HOME!! eww..lucky i scream! =X

guys in MOI CLASS ARENT GENTLEMAN AT ALL!! PATHETIC! USELESS!! FREAKOZ!!! ...

anti-guys these days..

haix.. mathz mathzzzz i have to start studying now! omg omg..

Stupid day

Stupid bus

Stupid MRT! arghhhh!

So much for efficiency..it took 45 mins and 16 busses that pass by the bus stop for this particular bus 912 to arrive..45 minutes!! the bus stop only has like 4 different busses only..the service is oso...frustrating..Lucky got this HOTHOTHOT guy at the bus stop..staring at him the whole tym..he reminds me of someone..i cant recall who..the face structure..the way he walks..i wonder...

stupid day..coz i felt stupid due to my phy!...lol lost 7 mark jux due to my calculations..i nid to change my calculator or change my fingers! bleh..

Some one cried when the person passed...u know what..? i felt worst..i cried too..silent tears.. heart-shattering.. im lucky my good jc frewn, study buddy n my v gd frewn supported me.. yeah! i felt bad for my study buddy though..she felt worst then me..the whole day... cheer up ok?!?! we shall kampatei tgt! =) we shall make susan regret n Rammie proud of us!

The MRT service shld bann MEN esp frm AIRING THEIR ARMPIT in the crowded MRT train. So smelly la! and i conducted a survey every morning.. out of like 10 seats, 8 are usually occupied by MEN! idiotic egoistic self-centered MEN! Dont u have balls to STAND n let women, the weaker species, to sit?!?! IDIOTS!


>>>>Sry..im jux frustrated at MEN every morn..but when i cum sch c him..all my anger vanishes..HAHA!...<<<<<<

slept at 3.30 am yesterday..

so irritated..blew moi nose..n moi ears got blocked..blew my ears ..n moi nose got blocked..ARGH!

went to sch jux bcoz of mathz..aft tt went home early..took early leave form..

argh! moi gop tutor tore the top part of moi form while waiting for me to call oi parents..last tym my mathz tutor wrote a big A behind my form to tell me to get an A for mathz! LOL wads with teachers n not wanting me to leave the sch?!!?

mathz was v dissappointing..got a pathetic D ... a 21/37 ..so dissappointted..a 3 day effort.. kk now wanna study stats liaoz!..

>< soo sad...my class didnt do well this tym.. =(

i wan a

- susan kay bk 'phantom' for my bdae

- a waterbottle for my bdae

- all ppl who r close to me to remmeber to wish me on my bdae

- a present frm a guy

- to get 4 4h2 As

- 2 hours talk on the phone with Elgin..or my bad best frewn

haha. for my present this yr...

im such a horrible kid!

haha =)

i didnt know written words. an sms specifically. could jux tear one's heart apart..

like a healing wound splitting open another time...

first it was moi gd frewn..now its moi close frewn..

first i was speechless..then emotions jux drowned me..

i continued reading/studying trying to ignore..

then i jux cried n cried.. all my efforts jux seemed wasted u knoe...

i planned..i bought..i read.. n all u did was say something..

n moi heart jux shatters...

i took a few hours after his apology to tink..n make up a reply..

but moi heart was still bleeding..i was crying..

in that few hours of me thinking..in that few hours..u said u lost some things in that few hours too..i tink soo.. u lost me.. a part of me..if u realise the monotonous of me talking now..its jux the hurt me..

then there comes back my jj close frewn.. talked to him..gossip...laugh..STAR camp represents- Student At Risk ..lol... he say that camp was for bad boies..he made me laugh when i feel so stressed n sadd rite now..

my jj gd frewn (ST) is oso amazing.. =) always look 4ward to gossipz n laughing at jokez every morn..its my only playgrd other then with my jj close frewn n my study-buddy...

my jj malay frewns jux neva fail to dissappoint me n make me sad.. i cried u know..i cried when u turn ur back to go the opp direction..i tot u being a classmate..u wld understand n inform me..but i was wrong..wad my new gd frewn say its true..its these kindda things that differentiate a hi-bye frewn frm a true frewn..thx gurl..really appreciate u being there as my study-buddy n the frewn i can truely rely on in class..

well..now im jux drowning under study load -- i tink im not gonna fail my econs..for once i feel confidence..but if i do fail..i knoe i have to try HARDER!

now itz phy..n mathz n chem tym.. whoa! study study study! ...wooohoootz!. .. ...

i knoe frewns will always dissappear but i knoe that GoD- ALLAH will always be with me..

thx - hope . study-buddy . jj close frewn . jj gd frewn(ST) . bad best frewn . . . .

There i was in front of this paper..

this paper filed with lotsa numbers..

numbers and words all jumbled up together...

in one mess of insensible clutter..

The room was so humid...

n i felt so stupid..

having a headache..

and trying to differentiate..

so i did the whole mathz paper according to instinct..

n didnt even try to think...

... there goes my mock prelim..

making me feel that life suddenly dimmed..

till i went to tuition..

where i laughed with elation..

n there goes my booobooo headache ..

right to the (cant rhyme this word!)..

some1 keep talking when i wanted some peace..

so i jux stopped toking all the way home..

tried to call n tok to my senior..

but he didnt pick up.. * worried..* didnt sms me that he was bz..

but in the end he was sick.. =(

every1 getting sickk..my chem cher didnt cum for 1 wk.. get well soon.. every1..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rl8SuLBCq3k&feature=related

... =) mathz paper..i hope i pass it..i wouldnt want leow to c my mommy..my mommy will b worried..coz i always ace my mathz frm pri sch..it was the only subject that i can understand since infant..plz..plzz make me do well for the paper.. =X

tinking abt my ex-crush..jux knew that 3 gurls like him le..lol..wonder y i liked him in the 1st place..=( (1-my classmate's frewn..2-my exclass-mate's frewn..3-forgot hu..)

tears.. are they all mine..

these wonderful things that shines like crystals and fall as my heart break n cry...

im tired in sick of everything everyone.. feel that i might as well die...

im jux tired of all the studying when all i want is to smile n shine...

yesterday i was with a jc frewn n met my pri sch frewn n my jc class mate..

jux now i was with my sec sch frewn n saw my jc crush...

im tired..i wanna sit at a playground n play all day..

but mommy say " u have to study or u'll neva get pay "

why dont everyone jux go away...

i jux want time for fun and play..

i want to live a life..

not like those zombies i see everyday..

those who smile coz they could mug all day...

i wana b a gurl who have sumthing nice n fun that i can smile at one day...

not thinking back n regretting all those time i shld have enjoyed in my younger days..

im tired..

im jux too tired...

i want to live a life thats worth living..

not one that is filled with things i frown upon some day...

some guy who used to b my classmate n is now a frewn of mine havent been replying my sms..did i say sumthing wrong..?.. i wonder...

i wish this could b my first year where i looked upon to start a new day...

is my everyday going to b as dreadful as today?

=X

a glint of hope... a canvas of colours.. a never-ending dream..

an opened empty book.. a continuous treacherous road.. a never-ending journey..

thats LIFE.. thats EXPERIENCE.. thats a JOURNEY..

We started off as two tiny minute cells(gametes) that fused into one to produce a miracle that could grow and multiply till it forms a perfect being.. a human being.. a homosapien..

We started off knowing nothing.. learning how to eat..sleep n cry... to crawling and walking and talking.. communicating..

We started off being a blank page to one with a story to tell...

We started off understanding things and accepting things to commanding things to go our way..

We started off as pure human being to one who is tainted, scarred and wise; learning from our very own mistakes..

We started off as a white silk to be one that is crinkled with use..

We started off not being able to communicate and will end off not able to communicate..

We started off not being able to walk and will end off not being able to walk..

I started this post with a feel to write a story upon my imagination but ended off wondering about life..

I started this blog to want to write a story but ended off telling only about my own..

I started this line with a new idea..maybe i can let my imagination wonder n let this be my playground where i play when im sad and play when i feel like playing.... stories..not my own might be posted.. but they r jux fruits of my own imagination...

Lets have our imagination run wild in an area that it is allowed...=)