study study study..

im sick of it

walked to sch with one of my ex-classmate that day..

nothing to say..

wordless clueless..awkwardness...

i sputtered a question..tried to b happie..but it wasnt happiness

i felt ..normal.. i guess my crush period is over..

now its studies taking over..

im worried

if i cant do it

if i cant make it

if i cant make them happie..

if instead i make them worrie..

bout my future..

if i have a future..

if i could ace..

and get any As..

that is needed..

to where im headed..

or would i jux a like my bro..

who used to be a pro..

a dissappointment is what they already had..

a dissappointment is not another thing they wuld get..

but am i able to achieve those high expetations...

of me..of my parents..of my family..of everyone around me?..

or would i jux be a shame and go nowhere...

i made a promise to b the 1st in the family to enter a uni...

but can i make all those DREAMZ come true and still be me?..

conflicting thoughts conflicting aims conflicting feelings conflicting emotions..

can i endure thru this last stretch after 12 years thru the education system..

conflicts conflicts...









tears..





tears..





will my parents get their only daughter to perform or will she be another bad investment?...





conflicts..





confused..






i nid a pillar...i nid my bad best frewn.. ><