i didnt know written words. an sms specifically. could jux tear one's heart apart..

like a healing wound splitting open another time...

first it was moi gd frewn..now its moi close frewn..

first i was speechless..then emotions jux drowned me..

i continued reading/studying trying to ignore..

then i jux cried n cried.. all my efforts jux seemed wasted u knoe...

i planned..i bought..i read.. n all u did was say something..

n moi heart jux shatters...

i took a few hours after his apology to tink..n make up a reply..

but moi heart was still bleeding..i was crying..

in that few hours of me thinking..in that few hours..u said u lost some things in that few hours too..i tink soo.. u lost me.. a part of me..if u realise the monotonous of me talking now..its jux the hurt me..

then there comes back my jj close frewn.. talked to him..gossip...laugh..STAR camp represents- Student At Risk ..lol... he say that camp was for bad boies..he made me laugh when i feel so stressed n sadd rite now..

my jj gd frewn (ST) is oso amazing.. =) always look 4ward to gossipz n laughing at jokez every morn..its my only playgrd other then with my jj close frewn n my study-buddy...

my jj malay frewns jux neva fail to dissappoint me n make me sad.. i cried u know..i cried when u turn ur back to go the opp direction..i tot u being a classmate..u wld understand n inform me..but i was wrong..wad my new gd frewn say its true..its these kindda things that differentiate a hi-bye frewn frm a true frewn..thx gurl..really appreciate u being there as my study-buddy n the frewn i can truely rely on in class..

well..now im jux drowning under study load -- i tink im not gonna fail my econs..for once i feel confidence..but if i do fail..i knoe i have to try HARDER!

now itz phy..n mathz n chem tym.. whoa! study study study! ...wooohoootz!. .. ...

i knoe frewns will always dissappear but i knoe that GoD- ALLAH will always be with me..

thx - hope . study-buddy . jj close frewn . jj gd frewn(ST) . bad best frewn . . . .