I guess these days sometimes u might catch me in a daze..

im v sad with life..

disappointed with everything.. my academics..my shooting..everything..i cant seem to juggle..

yet i knoe i have to move ahead..

the others r way in front of me in the race against tym..

but can i keep up?

can i catch up?

Can i win?

i must..

i have to..

this izint the tym to tink abt all these

now what matters..is FOCUS...sleep well..eat well..rest well..study well..train well..

so that my mind..

so that i can mentally prepare..

for me, its all in my mind...

its all in my emotions..

its all in my heart..

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i have finally gotten over him..

i see him..the sense of elatedness has gone..

no more being excited when i c him...

i always have to call him..

he neva calls me.. which means that this is jux a one-sided love..

im over him..he is the past..wad matters now is the present and the future..

if he neva calls/toks to me without me initiating a topic of discussion, so be it...

there r more ppl hu deserves my tym more then him...

eventhough i admire him...

guess love jux doesnt go well with a gurl lyk me..

niways, there is still my pistol and my studies begging for my attention n tym..
i guess i beta spend more tym with them..

~mixed feelings~